Pieces of the Past

Do to the fact that I seemed to have misplaced our USB cable, we haven't been able to load any of our pictures into the computer. Bummer. I keep forgetting to just buy one when we are at the store. So, pictures will be posted next time.

I've been thinking a lot about getting older... Maybe it's because Michael and I celebrated our 5 year wedding anniversary a few months ago, or maybe because we have 2 kids now? Mostly, I think it is because it is time for my 10 year high school reunion.

I'm not able to go to the reunion do to other plans. To be honest, I am relieved. Is that horrible? It makes me feel nervous even to think about it. Why you may ask? I'll tell you -
That was a different time in my life and I am just a shadow of the person I was then, I don't even recognize myself when I look at old photographs. It's not the physical change that shocks me, but the change is within. Thankfully I had a level head in high school for the most part and avoided most trouble. Still, however, I get sad sometimes when I reflect on those days.
Did I have a completely awful high school experience? No
Did I have good friends- yes
Did I have a good home life? Of course.
Was I following God- Yes, but it was kinda a lame effort at times.
All in all... I felt lost in a lot of ways.

It wasn't until after high school that I truly found my purpose in life and I actually became the person that God had created me to be. So, to visit the past seems so torturous to me. Why would I want to do that to myself?
There are definitely friends that I would like to see, but I would rather just meet up with them on my own, you know?

I was recently cleaning our closet and found Michael's senior book- the one that people sign with- "good luck in college, stay the same- don't ever change, it was fun sitting next to you in math, stay in touch" yada yada yada. Flipping through the pages, I was reminded that he and I are so similar. I saw the small ghosts of his past in those pages and I quickely tossed it in the trash. Later, I told him that I skimmed it and tossed it and he said, "Good, why would I want to hold onto that book?" Most people know that Michael is in many ways very different today compared to then, just like me. Both of us wish we could go back and change things...Knowing that we can't- we just chose to forget the past and try to make up for wasted time. I sometimes look at Michael and hear the lines of this song (one of my favorites)over and over in my head-

You brought me back to that place in my heart
I thought was gone, oh so long
I was unhappy now it's gone
And I'm moving on, moving on
I went for so long
And I was so wrong
And then I met you
And now I can't live without you
And I don't want to
I've done that all my life up till now

All the time, darling now, oh
All the time, now we'll have to make it up
We'll make it up, oh
All the days, darling now, oh
All the days, now we'll have to make them up
We'll make them up somehow
We'll make them up

TN

We went to visit my brother Dave and his family in Tennessee a few weeks ago and we forgot to post the pictures. Unfortunately Jesse and I didn't make it into any of the pics. :)
He moved into this new house over a year ago, but because I was pregnant we had to delay our visit for a while. It was great to see all of them and to just hang out and catch up. The kids loved playing (Ava had the time of her life!), and it was awesome to see their beautiful home and all the land that they now have. We're really happy for them! Michael and I love living in the city, but after visiting them I can totally see why so many people love the country life, too.

Happy Birthday and Congrats!

Happy 27th Birthday Michael!  I hope you had a fun birthday yesterday!  

We had a fun time celebrating with some family and friends, and  he had a really good time. Unfortunate timing- our AC broke and we got an estimate on Michael's B-day (not such a great gift.)  

Most of you know by now that Michael got a new job at Clary Communications.  He is really excited for this new opportunity and will begin there in a week and a half.  I'm super proud of him... He's pretty much awesome :)

Also, as long as I'm bragging him up on his very own post, check out his website if you want to see some of his new work!

Happy Birthday Baby! I love you!